#tears

"Fight for every inch with everything you have. Turn your rage, sadness, and loneliness into blood, sweat, and tears. Get the result. That's all that matters. To let your progress stagnate out of laziness to betray yourself. 
I now feel this in my bones, and I will never betray myself with my laziness again."

--Patrick Hart

mourning

I am still in love with a memory. 
I am in love with an illusion of the past. 
Its destruction is impossible, it is a part of me. 
I mourn its death, it miss its comfort and cuddles.
To let go, to lose it, is to find peace. 
To hold it tightly, 
is to obsess 
be addicted to a thing already gone--wasting myself away on nothing...
what is this loss I feel?
what is this misery?

Ten Rules

Rule 1: Find a place you trust and then try trusting it for a while. 

Rule 2: General Duties of a Learner: Pull everything out of your leaders, and pull everything out of your peers.

Rule 3: General Duties of a Leader: Pull everything out of your learners. 

Rule 4: Consider Everything an Experiment.

Rule 5: Be Self-Disciplined. This means finding someone wise or smart and choosing to follow them. To be disciplined is to follow in a good way. To be self-disciplined is to follow in a better way. 

Rule 6: Nothing is a Mistake. There is no win and no fail. There is only make! 

Rule 7: THE ONLY RULE IS WORK. If you work it will lead to something. It's the people who do all of the work all the time who eventually catch on to things.

Rule 8: Don't try to create and analyze at the same time. They are different processes. 

Rule 9: Be Happy whenever you can manage it. Enjoy yourself: it's lighter than you think. Find the joy in everything, pull the joy out of everything. 

Rule 10: "we're breaking all of the rules. Even our own rules. And how do we do that? By leaving plenty of room for X-quantities" --John Cage


Hints:
always be around. come or go to everything. always go to classes. read anything you can get your hands on. look at movie carefully, often. save everything--it might come in handy later. 

friendships

a deep dark unconditional love made of light, 

for art, dance, expression, creativity.

a deep dark glitter takes flight,

for love, poison, pain, pleasure.

Good Evil Peace

In my meditation, I have discovered that both Evil and Good forces want peace. I have discovered that both Good and Evil forces are not that different in their wants, desires, and spirit. What makes them different are their actions, intentions, morals, ethics, remorse and empathy.

Evil is destructive: self-destructive and environmentally destructive—it will stop at nothing to get peace, pleasure, safety, of preservation of its self, wants, goals, and needs. Evil will kill, destroy, lust, and loathe. And, in the end, it will have complete corrupt power and control, providing it peace of mind, and ease to attain all that it requests and loves. But, that love is imperfect—due to neglect, lack of commitment, carelessness, and destruction of all trust and respect for the self, and the world. Good, on the other hand, wants peace, but has the will to attain it though a moral and fair, empathetic path of actions. Good looks towards process and struggle, resistance, and perseverance to attain all it needs and loves. Good creates solutions around and with obstacles of life; it is self-creative and environmentally sustainable; good is creative.

For me, this is really important to think about, because I often get lost in my journey of life—and I need to have a way to find my path.

There is so much good and evil in the world—and what I did find is that they are not that different, and are easily mistaken for each other. Also, both good and evil exist in everything. This is the natural order of things. And, most importantly, both evil and good want peace.

But, for clairvoyance, I look to an action’s vision of peace, and path towards peace, and I ask: is it creative, or is it destructive… And, I know if I’m entering in Evil or Good.

#healing

Unification

"only in the state of absolute glitter are we ever unified with another. 3 times in your life will understand this fact. At birth, at death, and at creation-explosion-ejaculation of glitter itself. Otherwise we are individuals beside individuals. And that is the loving relationship between glitter. Never when we sleep do we share the same glittery wet dreams of silver linings-- we sleep alone, beside another, with the glitter between us, between moments in time. That is the loving relationship. Individuals, alone, beside each other, unified by glitter."



--a message from the Glitter Shaman 








"to share the dream, is mitote......"