my boyfriend

Yes my boyfriend is Asian,
But there is so much more to him than that.
Yes my boyfriend is Asian, 
But did you know, I fell in love with him because he got be a quesadilla when I was hungry after working 3 shifts non-stop?
Yes my boyfriend is Asian, 
But he's a caring, and strong man. He took me to the hospital after less than a week of dating me, and sat with me all night as I got medical care. When my family wasn't around to help me, he stepped into my life with tender valor and inexhaustible support.
Yes my boyfriend is Asian,
But I bet you don't know his ethnicity. He was born from beautiful mix of Japanese and Korean heritage--not without its conflict and and share of frustrations. He is American, just as much as I am, and we like to dance in our new discoveries between our naked flesh, under the feathery layers of culture and blankets.
Yes my boyfriend is Asian,
But I am never quite sure why that is a surprise to you. Should I only date inside my own race, ethnicity? Is dating him somehow an oppression of myself? My possibilities? Of him? Of his liberties? I never know quite what it means to be a bigot, but I know it is based in a fear of learning more about each other, and resisting tasting the deliciousness that all of life has to offer. And something too, about conquering and controlling other people, rather than sharing and making love in all its forms. I can tell you, he and I, are not bigots.
Yes my boyfriend is Asian,
But I am Native American, Latino, Apache, Aztec, French, Spanish. I am many things, and I am in love with the many things he is, and he loves the many things I am. We are more than our biological historic topographies in our flesh. We are the love we see in each other's eye, hearts, knees, and noses.
Yes my boyfriend is Asian,
And we are very bad gays together. We failed at being the sexy hunky dudes on floats for Facebook or AT&T. We were not that cute millionaire boyfriends on that new edgy talkshow. He was not the white boy, I was not the white boy, who saved the other from the oppressive family, and we did not go off into the Burning Man cocaine filled bliss of a future. We work in social justice through acaemics. We eat, we dance, we chill. Our queer bodies of color in love do no fit the narrative of gay very well. oh well. dijo del whale.
Yes my boyfriend is Asian,
And I am his Boo
and He is my boo
And we are together
in love

The Wind and the Mountain

I am the wind.
Hail and ice.
Water and daggers of obsidian. 
I speak my mind, and cut with shade.
I bless the earth with my wet dance, and flowers to bloom.
Healing mist of a morning due.
Deathly hollow screams in the night.
Cool breeze on a sunny day.
And there you stand, mountain.
The one who does not fear or tremble or bend to my push.
Unyielding in your admiration of my chest and thrust.
You see me.
You smile.
And you stand there.
Unshaken.
Absorbing my dew.
In your valleys I rest my head.
Hugged by your minerals and metals.
Enriched is the soil of our love.
Beautiful is the sunset against the clouds of our heaven.

The boy

There is a boy who lives at the edge of the water

By the ocean 

Beside the forest 

There he stands, nude, I said, but saw nothing 

His skin milky soft 

Honey down his cheeks 

Thighs so thick, he can lift the sky 

A mind so sharp, the sun fears his cuts of shade 

Eyes of almond tears 

And hair as black as coal 

A boy lives by the ocean 

He is to be followed 

Wind cool of mist, and weary of the heat 

My embrace thirsts for his kisses

Dear bird on the tree

Why do I fear so much 

No! She said to me

You melt to him 

Ocean, I want more! 

She said yes

Ocean, what do I do 

Go to him, and left him go? 

Yes, she said yes. 

The Mother Earth is soft 

And speaks only through supporting you 

She tells me and gives me a path

To him 

But what is this in my way? 

Love 

Money 

Books 

Naked sexy boys 

AIDS? 

The boy has no fear

Ocean, will you heal me? 

No! Rain will heal you

In the curve of your back, you will have power

Die everyday 

And live 

To know, the boy is with you through earth.

my interest in dance

I am interested in dance that cries. 
I am interested in dances that scream. 
I am interested in war dances.
I am interested in dances that heal.
I am interested in dances that are obsessed with not being obsessed with themselves. 
I am interested in dances that enact ethnography.
I am interested in dances that play with equations of dark matter.
I am interested in the estranged dancer.
I am interested in the uncommon dancing body.
I am interested in the decaying dancing body.
I am interested in the most interesting thing about the dancer, which is how they live their life.
I am interested in the training and sacrifice of dancers.
I am interested in the hunger of dancers, and its suppression.
I am interested in HIV postive dancers.
I am interested in dancers with diabetes.
I am interested in dances that comfort me with ideas of revolution.
I am interested in dances that compel me to become the dancer, and the dancers then viewers of me.
I am interested in dances that walk backwards.
I am interested in dancer who do not face the audience.
I am interested in the back dancer in the corp, instead of the principal.
I am interested in the expendability of dance, and thus the expendability of dancers.
I am interested in the ephemeral aspects of dance, and thus the ephemeral aspects of dancers, and their economy.
I am interested in how unsustainable dance moments are sustained in dance companies, in unsustainable ways, for capitalist progress.
I am interested in dances who don't seek audiences, but who draw audiences in without escape.
I am interested in dances who are alive, and remain so.
I am interested in dancers who die, and are resurrected.

Stay Sass-y by Thong Nguyen

I love collecting these shorts of post, because they inspire me to think about all sorts of questions, such as:
-What does it mean to be sassy?
-How does San Jose, as an epicenter of tech and males play into gay fantasy?
-What does it mean or matter for gay asian men to self-identify as sassy? If the gay asian male is "supposed" to be "quiet and passive", how does sass subvert our expectations of asian males? And how does it challenge our perspectives of gay asian males? And further, how does sass disrupt our expectations for masculinity?
-How does sass add and trouble the discursive gay identity or schema?
-Can sass be danced? How? Can this dance be materialized? Could this photograph be an artifact of sassy choreography?
-Is sass gendered? Can sass exist outside of gender? Can sass be a gender itself?
-How can, and how is, sass deployed as a strategy for survival in the heteronormative hegemonic society?

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Stay Sass-y 

by Thong Nguyen 

Source: facebook 

The adventure of Devin and Sid:

The adventure of Devin and Sid:

Sid: Look, yeah, I'll ask steve if he got any 420
Dev: that right that right, wait yo, who iz steve?
Sid: Steven, homie i told you about him
Dev: Boii, I can't keep up with all the delicious man mean after chinito!
Sid: well, really steven and jaime
Dev: I can't, you and your latin meat yo.
Sid: so spicy
Dev: you racist
Sid: yeah well they don't talk to me anymore
Dev: wait when you getting the stuff tho, impo'tant matters, keep focused!

‪#‎GoneHoliday‬

Antonio discovers Twax:

Antonio discovers Twax:

A: hey so this is where you live?

T: yeah, I live with my parents...I used to live alone, on my own, when i moved out when I was 17. But you know, it got me here.

A: oh, yea... Tina?

T: yea, so you gonna fuck me?

A: yeah...I you got poppers?

T: yeah, you party? oh shit no, yea you don't

A: yeah I think Im allergic or something

T: k... kk... I don't suck dick man... I have a boy you know?

A: yea I get you. k, you got lube bro?

T: yeah yeah. aw shit no, lotion okay?

A: sure...

T: K... let's go, Let me just set up one thing first.

//They start taking off their own clothes. Twax sets up the TV, and plays porn. There isn't any sound, and then some R&B/HIP HOP comes on overlaying the porn. Lights fade.//

//lights up, the two start putting on clothes//

Twax: you like that shit?

Antonio: yeah? what's that called?

T: its a popper trainer, its on Xtube all over the..... place...yea...tells you when to huff and when to take that shit.

A: cool i'll look that up.

T: k. let me clean up okay? I need to finish some things over here, can you please wait in the car?

A: yeah I will.

T: don't leave me okay? please don't leave me? please? wait, i'll be 5 there in 5 min.

A: right due. oh btw you need to make me a CD of the music, it was dope!

T: yea lot of dudes say that, they like my music. but that's my life, I love music. I'd love to get into that, you know, I have, tho, but music is my life, a lot of people say that. k don't leave me k?

A: right.

//antonio gets into the car and waits, listens to NPR talk about racism in the supreme courts//

//Twax enters with 2 sprite cans of soda//

Twax: sorry dude, I didn't have coffee

Antonio: all good, I don't drink that but that's cool.

T: thanks for driving me to work, it's just a right, then all the way down.

A: yeah I don't know Hayward that well, so just keep directing me.

T: cool.

A: so you have a man?

T: yeah, he cheats on me a lot but I love him.

A: what's going on? I mean you just fucked me?

T: Yeah, I mean.... he fucks other dudes, and I fuck other dudes, and its hard you know. But I love him and he loves me. like yeah. but we are exclusive. I've asked him to have an open relationship, but he don't want me with other guys like that?

A: yeah you should just have an open relationship. fuck other dudes, and date each other.

T: yeah but its hard with Tina. like it's gotten rid of all my friends. not like I need them anyways. It's ruined my life. but I still have a house and live with my parents. so I'm cool. I just have him, even if when I leave him he's looking for another dude to get high with, I know he say he's not fucking anyone else, but the moment he closes the door, he's looking for his next hook-up to pick up. our addiction is killing, us, we need rehab before it kills both of us.

A: yea...

T: yo you can leave me off here, this my work

A: okay... bye.

T: yeah keep the soda. thanks for the ride.

//Twax leaves the car//

Antonio: he's not going to work...I bet there is a pick up here....I wonder if Devin knows this dude...

#GoneHoliday