I've decided not to have sex unless I love the dude.
I used to think by having sex with really hot guys I would be happy. I thought somehow I would be saved from myself and enter a new plane of reality. But that day never came, that man never arrived, and the sex was never that good.
Sex is a drug, an addictive drug. And I am an expert on the subject out of choice and obsession. It will always be a part of me. But, I do not have to act upon sex, I do not have to continue acting in sex, having sex, seeking sex, measuring sex, being in sex.
I will continue on my path of love and make love with those I love. That's the only way to protect myself and improve myself. I hope this change will bring new harmony into my life.
Friday, July 3, 2015
Sunday, March 15, 2015
NUMBER ZERO
SMITH/WYMORE DISAPPEARING ACTS PRESENTS
Number Zero (a space opera) version 2.0
Created and Directed
by Sheldon B. Smith and
Lisa Wymore
March 19, 20, 21, 2015
Thursday - Saturday, 8:00pm Tickets: $15 - $20
“Smith/Wymore
Disappearing Acts’ zany Number Zero (a space opera) is truly a piece for our
times.” Rita Felciano, San Francisco, Bay Guardian
Joe Goode Annex
1310 Mission St., San Francisco
SAN
FRANCISCO, CA, March 2015 – Smith/Wymore Disappearing Acts is proud to announce
the return of Number Zero (a space opera) version 2.0, a highly physical,
semi-improvised, evening-length dance theater performance about a small band of
humans who live in a future world controlled by a sentient
computer leader. Created by Sheldon B. Smith, Lisa Wymore and
Ian Heisters, in collaboration with James Graham, and Pei-Ling Kao,
Number Zero is an incredibly
unique experience. The show is both a game and an experiment in
real-time computer augmented performance that plays with the familiar sci-fi
tropes of humans ruled by the machines that they themselves brought to life. The latest version will be completely
revamped and re-imagined. Number Zero (a space
opera) v2.0 runs March 19-21, 2015 at
the Joe Goode Annex, San Francisco.
Smith
and Wymore have shared a collaborative partnership for more than a decade.
Recognized for their witty choreography and visual design, the award winning
husband and wife team has performed for audiences throughout the U.S. and
Europe.
In Number Zero, Smith/Wymore
Disappearing Acts enter the realm of science fiction. In the not-so-distant
future, a group of six humans band together for companionship and survival on a
foreign world where individual memories, dreams and identities are “outsourced”
to cloud servers. The
work is largely improvised in response to computationally derived
instructions and scores sent to the performers live during the show. Each
performance is unique as the set of instructions within the computational
scores is programmed to provide new stimulus and puzzles with each rendition of
the performance.
Performers
Deanna Bangs, James Graham, Ian Heisters, Pei-Ling Kao, Janine Trinidad, and Cuauhtémoc
Mitote join Smith and Wymore on stage. An additional “role” is performed by the
computer operating system, whose protocols were conceived and developed jointly
by Smith and Heisters. In the spirit of Merce Cunningham’s chance operations Number Zero prevents the performers from
memorizing any given sequence of movements in advance. This creates surprising,
funny, poignant, and utterly unpredictable choices to happen on the stage.
“We’ve created a set of circumstances in Number Zero in which the performers are
asked, in a certain sense, to ‘survive’ the moment-by-moment unpredictability
of a work that is continuously shaped by what appears to be an intelligent and
authoritarian power,” says Smith.
“Number Zero
is a piece about the future,” adds Wymore, “but it’s also about where we are
now in our relationship with technology and the choices we have about how we
want to evolve with it.”
Tickets:
$15 Students $20 General Admission
ABOUT SMITH/WYMORE DISAPPEARING ACTS
Smith/Wymore Disappearing Acts
is a dance-theater company
founded in 2001
by co-artistic directors Sheldon B. Smith and Lisa Wymore. Their work places the inherent
beauty of the body in motion, both choreographed and improvised, in a deeply
conceptual and human-centered environment that is supported and enhanced by technology. Smith and Wymore’s
research has taken them from studio to stage by way of virtual and real locations on city street corners, desert landscapes, kitchens,
canyons and science
labs in search of timeless stories of passion, fear, longing, violence,
humor and joy. From these investigations Disappearing Acts creates
abstract narratives built
on a foundation of physical experimentation,
improvisation, text, song and digital
image. The result is a new aesthetic
that is at once oddly familiar and beautifully odd. Their work has won numerous awards including Best Interdisciplinary
Performance and Best Use of Technology at Chicago’s PAC/Edge
Festival 2004. They were nominated for Sexiest show at the 2005 Dublin Fringe Festival
and were nominated for two 2006 Isadora Duncan awards for Best Choreography and Best Design. In 2006 their work was seen in San Francisco, Minneapolis, Zurich as well as several small towns in County Donegal, Ireland.
In 2007, their son Will was born.
WHAT:
Smith/Wymore
Disappearing Acts presents Number Zero
(a space opera), a highly physical, semi-improvised, evening-length
performance about a small band of humans trying to survive a near-future world
controlled by a sentient computer leader.
WHEN:
March
19, 20, 21 2015
Thursday
- Friday, 8pm
WHERE:
Joe Goode Annex
1310 Mission St., San Francisco, CA 94110
TICKETS:
$15
Students $20 General Admission
Monday, March 9, 2015
The Struggle, The Magic, The Miracle
The Struggle is real.
But so is the struggle mentality.
It is a limitation on your ability to be anything you want.
It is a limitation on everything you could be.
It is a fear driven anger, resentment, and grievance.
It negates Love.
It negates Magic.
Instead of thinking in terms of the struggle, instead focus on the miracles of life. Focus on the impossible, and make it manifest in the present. Believe it will manifest in the present.
Continue to work in a good way.
Believe in Magic.
Magic is real, and miracles are real.
This is the impossible dance that we do everyday--a defiance, an impossibility made possible in the working, in the doing, via an attempt, of the impossible.
This is love.
Love is real.
But so is the struggle mentality.
It is a limitation on your ability to be anything you want.
It is a limitation on everything you could be.
It is a fear driven anger, resentment, and grievance.
It negates Love.
It negates Magic.
Instead of thinking in terms of the struggle, instead focus on the miracles of life. Focus on the impossible, and make it manifest in the present. Believe it will manifest in the present.
Continue to work in a good way.
Believe in Magic.
Magic is real, and miracles are real.
This is the impossible dance that we do everyday--a defiance, an impossibility made possible in the working, in the doing, via an attempt, of the impossible.
This is love.
Love is real.
Sunday, March 8, 2015
Beautiful Man
As I sit in Berkeley, and I see cute Asian boys walk by, I think, wow, those boys are hot and cute. I wish I could kiss them, hold them, play with them, get to know them, date them.... I don't think of them as exotic. They are just handsome men; handsome men who are not white men. Handsome men who do not seek to oppress me. Their eyes and skin speak to an ancestor of mine--similar we are, the closest approximation of biology to my own flesh-- gone thanks to genocide. And, I see cute Latino boys walk by too, and I think the same thing.... We are kin, and I love you instantly... I do not seek to attack you, beautiful man. I hope we can be partners together in the liberation of ourselves, and negate the oppression through this, our ancestral love.
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
teaching
I have to teach my students of color how to be resilient. No, more I have to support the resilience inside them. They endure so much oppression, I am not about to perpetuate it in school. They must learn tools to move beyond their struggles -- however small or strange-- to overcome life's challenges, to create for them the futures they can dream to dream, that their hearts admire.
But when I think of my queer students, resilience is not enough. There needs to be more, perhaps Disidentification and beyond. They need to learn to resist hatred and distraction, but also create out of it, create out of them, something new, something different, something fierce.
no limits
If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. - Bruce Lee
the fight of endless banter
Those who benefit from inequality will fight to maintain this system, will fight to keep their advantage.
Those who suffer from inequality, don't always fight, as they are often discouraged, oppressed, confused, and carry symptoms of prolonged historical trauma.
Those who suffer from inequality must fight for freedom, justice, and collaboration. Those who maintain a privilege from inequality must be generous, and compassionate-- they must see freedom, justice, and collaboration as important.
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