I've decided not to have sex unless I love the dude.
I used to think by having sex with really hot guys I would be happy. I thought somehow I would be saved from myself and enter a new plane of reality. But that day never came, that man never arrived, and the sex was never that good.
Sex is a drug, an addictive drug. And I am an expert on the subject out of choice and obsession. It will always be a part of me. But, I do not have to act upon sex, I do not have to continue acting in sex, having sex, seeking sex, measuring sex, being in sex.
I will continue on my path of love and make love with those I love. That's the only way to protect myself and improve myself. I hope this change will bring new harmony into my life.
