Cuauhtemoc on Twilight's Wolf Pack

Please watch this preview interview with Cuauhtemoc Peranda, on race, ethnicity, art, performance, and contemporary racism. From the Native Bodies of Twilight, to The Lone Ranger and Tanto. 


--Cuauhtemoc 

The Artist has no need for clubs

I made this realization the other day while at Gameboi (the gay Asian focused party in sf, every 2nd saturday of the month). I was there, and I had a great time, don't get me wrong. I wish I could have stayed longer, but I would have turned into a pumpkin (or really have been on the bus/waiting for one to get back to Mills/Oakland until 4am...not cute). However, I soon found that this kind of place, this scene was not for me. Still, even though the crowd, the music and the dancing was on point! (the drinks were strong too! amazing! I actually got buzzed)

Yet. While there. I have to say. Inside. I realized this was not my place. That I had no need for this. And this was not any fun.

Sure people applauded me, and hit on me, and gave me hugs and offered me cigarettes for my fabulous-joyous self and dancing....I bring great joy while there, I feel I have to, it's what I do.....yet, this place was filled with people who seemed so empty, so self serving, so needy and so scared.....

It seemed that the people at this club, and it happens everywhere, in any club, go to the club to be noticed, to live, to show off the wealth, their shoes their clothes, their gym memberships, their friends, who they hook-up with, and what kind of drinks, seats they can get......all idealizing after this stripper, the body of sex and lust.....

(...maybe its the fact i have slept with strippers and models before, but I know that just because they have a rocking bod, and can move, does not mean they are good in bed, nor does it mean that they have a full personality, or person hood.... you definitely lose something when you go out on the pole like that, and stress so much about appearance and your body.....you lose a bit of your humanity, and to me, that is not sexy.....)

When I enter these clubs, I go there to get my drink (get buzzed, not drunk...drunk =frat party/El Boro's crib), get down and boogie, and maybe meet some people, hang with friends (I have none, so that doesn't usually happen...yeah that's right...i have no friends who like to go out with me...it's cool, whatever....they are lame and complain about how much they don't go out, and instead spend too much time on facebook reading this post....).
YET! People I see going to the club, go there to live, because it seems as though their other lives are death to them. In other words, they are not integrated in their bodies and lives. THEY WORK TO GO OUT...instead of going out to just go out....leaving work to be, on par with what they do outside of it.
These people I see make going out really hard and negative. Making it all so superficial and about appearances, and they spend so much time caring about these little 4 hours of party, making it seem like this is all that matters in life: HOW DO YOU CARRY YOURSELF IN THE CLUB, WHO YOU WITH? WHAT YOU ARE? WHO YOU GOING HOME WITH TONIGHT? It's really kinda silly.....
All of this, as separate from who they are in the "real" world. Yet, they don't see that how they act here, is who they are out there, and vise versa......

You may have a nice bod in the club, and play into people's fantasies that you have nice clothes, money, car, and time to go into the gym. But the reality is often the case that you are too busy for yourself, and anything more than 1 hour of a hook-up is too much....you just need to feel special in the club, because you are not happy in your real life....

scary stuff....

"...you just need to feel special in the club, because you are not happy (or feel special) in your real life...."
in my opinion, this is really gross......

There is no problem with coming to the club, looking cute, and feeling cute, and being cute and just being happy. But when bitchy comes to shove, it's not cute, and you have just lost all that you could be.....

You essentially become a club-douche-asshole-bitch-prick.....or some other word that is that specific....and many people are guilty of this....

But the artist, feels special. Life is his or her art. they are integrated. they are happy. and so when they go to the club. there is not need to feel special...and thus the hard times.........
...when a club is built around a culture of people who need to feel special, those who are happy and are already feel special, feel out of place, and are ostracized, yet embraced at the same time......they are the shining light, they are the ones to exclude.....

the Jesus story--he was wonderful, so people loved him, and hated him....
Happens all the time, just cuz you are happy and kind, doesn't mean people will be nice to you, they may kill you.....(strange i know)....

Now the tragic artist, he goes to the bar, and feels tragic, and drinks himself back home....its a different story, but, he goes there not to feel special, but to numb himself of his arts, of life, cuz its hard to deal with it all sometimes.....to be un-integrated is nice, and so the whiskey comes into play...hehe...

but I digress......

For me as an artist. I am happy. I have no need to come into a culture to feel good. my outside life of dance and scholarship is lovely. and i can only think of dancing more and more and more....so to come into a place that says "you must look this way, act this way etc.....to be happy" I get really confused....cuz I'm good the way I am.....do not colonize me.....
It's all so funny....really it is...but that is life.....


Now the question is, if i do not need the club, what do i do on saturday night?
HOUSE PARTY
CHILL WITH FRIENDS
FREE DANCE
JAM
CHILL
EAT
DATE
SEX
SEE MORE ART
LEARN SCIENCE
DISCOVER POLITICS
PLAN TO HELP THOSE IN NEED
BE PRODUCTIVE
GO TO A BALL
SLEEP
HANG OUT AND DO NOTHING
FACEBOOK
AND GO OUT AND DANCE--this is clubbing....but in the sense of not participating in the atmosphere, going to the whitehorse for instance and just chilling.....dancing, not going for the people, sex, scene, culture, but for the freedom and the kinestisia....a RAVE could be like this....

I think the definition of this club-culture bullshit is a circuit party.....but that is for a dissertation....
...I don't think it is bullshit, but just very interesting, and something for which I have no interest...expect as an anthropologist ..


And all of this is written to say:

Please reconsider why you go to the club. And please stop acting so stupid there. Have fun!
"don'g be a drag, just be a queen"---except most people don't know how to be Queens

I DO!!!!
so umm, yeah.........

BUTCH QUEEN!!!!

The ridiculousness of hotness

The ridiculousness of hotness

Okay. Diversity. There is no one way to raise a child, there is no one way to live a good life, there is no one way to be a scientist, and there is no one way to be a sexy person.

Cool. Diversity lives in the idea of multiplicity—the idea that one idea is variable, but still consistent to its principles.

So what of “attractiveness” and “hotness”? These ideas I have thought about for a while, mainly because I have never understood them. I find certain people attractive, but not everyone also finds them attractive.
I think to myself, how could this be? Isn’t there a standard?

Well, there is a standard, but it is not the only version of hot. “Hotness and attractiveness” is diverse.

Look, fat people are beautiful. Skinny people are beautiful. Athletic people are beautiful. And balanced people are beautiful. Everyone is beautiful, that is a fact.
Everyone is hot, and everyone deserves to be hot too!

The fact of the matter is people try to force ONE idea of “hotness” and “worthiness” onto others…which is not okay, and this needs to stop. Yes, Ke$ha is hot, but she is not the only kind of hot out there.

So here is what I have to say

1) everyone is hot
2) what matters in life is love and the goodness of people
3) true diversity
4) people can turn and bring negative energy, but they do not always mean it
5) there is a standard of hotness, but it is false
6) the standard of hotness exist to discriminate and control
7) we need to learn to love each other, stop calling certain people hot, and others not. We need to see the beauty in everyone.

Look. Models are hot. Yes. But so are you. And so am I. we are all hot. Models are no hotter than anyone else—they just have a standard body that works for fashion and runways. They are not perfect people, and no, not everyone can be them. Not everyone can be you. Not everyone can be me.

We are each blessed with our own gifts, and problems—we are all beautiful.

There really exist no ugly in the world. Just beauty we don’t understand.
Death and destruction can be just as beautiful as birth and growth. It is all part of the world, and it is all a part of us.

The “fat chick” should not be seen as any less attractive than the “skinny bitch”. The “fat dude” should not be seen as less attractive than the “greek god”. There are more things to people than their body’s looks. And, there is deep beauty in the bodies we consider lesser than, just as there is deep beauty in bodies we find better than.

I ask, look at people.
I ask, do not be superficial.
I ask, give thanks to the gifts you have.
And I ask, that you give back, and give love to those who still need it.

Thank you

--temoc.



p.s.
hotness is not the same as sexiness
hotness is not the same as fierceness

hotness is an adjective that usually means good-looking or one that posses physically attractive features.
But again, this whole note is about how there is no such thing as “good-looking” or “physical attractive” person. Per-person, we each find something attractive in others. But not everyone can agree. There is no such thing as a generalized good-looking or hot person. Stop fooling yourself, and stop trying to be anything other than who you are. If you are the “standard”, then so be it. If you are not the “standard”, then so be it. We need to learn to live in harmony, and accept each other’s beauties.

Why do men have sex with multiple People?

Why do men have sex with multiple People?

{There are a few reasons I have found, in my life, in myself, in the Golden Girls… all of which lead to an incomplete list of rational, or rather, answers to a question. This does not mean they are right, take place all at once to create a complete answer, but these are some answers…. Though I know men are not the only people who have sex with multiple partners, women, and third-genders do too, but this is only what I found out for men….

LA-DEE-DAH}

Well miss thing, it’s because:

They sluts. They just like to do it, and it is in their nature. It is a natural thing for them to want, and so they do it…no reason.

They  scum. They are just awful people, without good care as to what their actions do to other people, their partners, or other men. They are scum.

They are horny. Men, some, most, then to always just want sex. When a man spots his sexual desired individual, boom, he becomes aroused, and his penis erect. And, he wants to have sex with him. There is no logic or dive, just a want, a need to have sex, to fuck. Sometimes there is no emotion, no intelligence, just a hard penis, and a nice ass or vagina… that’s it… he’s a horny dude… and he need to fuck!

Genetic impulse to spread seed. Men are an evolved species, just as much as any other species on this earth. They have a need to procreate, and preserve their genetic code, and help it evolve. It is part of the creative nature of man. He must create as many versions of himself, with as many people as possible, to ensure he is survived in others, with others.

Psychological impulse to spread seed. Men, in their minds, not necessarily from upbringing, have a mental need to spread seed, or, just have had sex with the most people.  Simply put:  “have been in everyone, therefore top dog”—he wants to have been with everyone, wants to be the top, Alfa male—Zeus was this kind of man, and he was a God, a man of warship, with a huge ego… yes, sex is an ego boost for men:  ego impulse.

They don’t get enough from their wives/partners. Let’s say a man is a sexual being, because he is. He needs sex once a week, once a month, once a day, once every 3 hours, what have you—if his sexual partner does not provide him with adequate opportunities for sex—and a good variety of sexual experiences—he can find sex elsewhere. Sex can be found in loose women, loose men, or for purchase. The sexual drive is strong enough to seek it out anywhere..why do they do this? Because the need for sex parallels a need for food…

They want to taste every flavor. Perhaps the man has all the sex he wants, he still want to taste flavors of sex. Everyone in the world has their own flavor, because they are all individuals. No matter the person, their sex will be different, and a man, may want to have tried all that he can before he dies. White, black, latino, native, Indian, asian, icelantic, whatever…the man want to have had it. 

They are a bored. Sometimes a man gets bored, and like he could play checkers, read a book, maybe he’d just like to have sex. Maybe he’s not okay with the sex he has right now, maybe a fight, but instead of going to yoga, or just masturbating, he goes and has sex with someone, just because he feels like it.

As many hot people as possible—winning. Sometimes a man wants to have sex with as a many “babes” or “hotties” as possible. The reason for this could be an ego based, but this usually comes from feeling inadequate or overzealous. If inadequate, the sexiness or desirability of the sexual partner gives the man their sexiness, or worthiness thought the action of having sex—the rational: being able to sleep with hot people means he’s hot, even though he may not consider himself that hot. If overzealous, to fuel the man’s image or ego, he has sex with hot people, because he can, because people desire him. He picks from the best, because he cans, thus fueling his image. Both entertain this image of “WINNING”. To win in life is to be rich, famous, and have access to as many babes as you want, whenever you want. Sex, Money, Freedom, Permission, Respect—all of it…

No one will actually form a relationship, and they need sex because they are horny. This issue is common in the young gay community. Often times a man will find that he is in need of sex, or love, or romance, or just company of another—he dates multiple people, because none of them are ready for a title of “girlfriend” or “boyfriend”—not ready for a real relationship—in fear of hurt, or just because of the uncertain tendency of the future. Whatever the reason may be, there is no one present to provide consistent attention to the man’s sexual needs, and thus, he goes and find others.

Foreplay is their fetish. Some men never really want to have sex, and never want to have a sexual, deeply meaningful relationship. Rather, their sexual play, and sexual needs, are satisfied at, or stop at, foreplay—the chase, the play, the game. Dating guys or girls, getting them to buy drinks, getting them to bed, and leaving is their need. Anything more is extra or extraneous. They love the chase and the game, and so they date, have foreplay, or have sex with multiple people, because that is their need.

Flirting and teasing is their fetish, they crave and desire the experience. Some like the experience of flirting with other, and this could be their sexual need. They may have sex with one person, be committed, but need to feel wanted by other, and be able to flirt with others. Because this does not often work in a traditional monogamous relationship, the man often finds issues, and drama, this leads past flirting into sexual encounters.

Revenge. Some men use sex as a weapon, either against their sexual partner, or against someone external of the sexual experience. Some men have sex with their buddy’s wife in order to get revenge for personal wrong doing by his buddy to him. Some men have sex with a sexual partner, in order to end agreements, or just to settle things, as to who is top, who is in charge. Many issues can be resolved through sex, and they have been so for generations. Sex can be a physical transaction, a way of doing business, and in order for this to happen, a man must have sex with multiple people. “It’s just business”

Power/rape. Rather than gaining status, such as ego boost from having sex with multiple people, some men wish to actually gain power over the sexual partner, moreover, power over many people—and he achieves this through sex. This can go further into forcefully having sex with others, in order to gain power, which is rape. Men are not the only ones to do this, but it is a very historic form of battle, and of power.  

IK : Indigenous Knowledge

"...everything on the earth has a purpose, every disease and herb to cure it, and every person a mission. this is the Indian theory of existence." --Christal Quintasket

study...

You know what I want to do? 

I want to do an anthropological study of the transformation of a gay man… and his life cycles. Too, I also want to do one for a gay woman… 

I know there are set stages, but I do not think they are tried to be defined.

Why? Why must one define them? For direction and guidance and deviance…just as a marker, or pattern of what does exist, so that one can refer to….

There is birth. Realization of the rainbow. Non-gay/innocence. Gay feelings. The first gay kiss. Coming out. Gay sex. More coming out. Work force. Categorization of self into archetypes, reforming and solidifying identity. Fall into which sub-culture of gay lifehood. Leadership in said subculture. perpetuation of certain gay life-style. Transition into new life and gay culture. Family or no “traditional family”. Bathhouses. Children. Guidance of young gays, queer elder-hood. Affect of AIDS in Gay Lifecycle and society. Gay families and Houses. Biological familiar relationship and responsibility as gay family member. Role as citizen and political power. Death, and passing on queer knowledge.

…Then too… I want to look at the development  with ages… looking at childhood development and adult development, and how the young adulthood (ages 21-35) affect life in middle age (35-55) to “senior” hood (55-75) (with retirement at ~64) to golden and twilight years (75-95+)…

I want to know what occurs, and what trending there is. I do not think that the old heterosexual model works… not even for heterosexuals…

But there is not a transition for “full gay adulthood”. There is no “warrior Ceremony” like I had in my community? When, now, does one become a full functioning adult gay male…because “coming out usually occurs between the ages of 13-25” …is there a childhood development period later in life…. And what is important here.. what work have House done for these “children”…. All very interesting stuff… 

For you see, LGBTQIAT-S peoples have already been integrated in society, and there are already set paths. I just wish to know what they are… 

This data, may be useful in politics, health organization and administration, community organizing and advocacy, and arts…. 

I think, this study really needs to happen… hmmm

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The Boy Who Fell From the Sky Cuauhtemoc Peranda Mitote $20 Adv. $25 Dr. - 8pm Sunday, NOV 4 The Boy Who Fell From The Sky  ….a gift from above, a sentiment for creation….  The Boy Who Fell From The Sky is a collection of small dances set in a large performance event, mitote. Each dance follows the themes of “struggle, rebirth, and creation”—setting a certain tone of “hope and possibly” for the night of dancing. The inspiration for this concert comes from the Iroquois creation myth, of how the earth came into being: “A sky woman falls down, into a world made of water and sky, and upon a turtle’s back she rubs earth and clay, and there the land, the earth was made”. Yet, in the fashion of Mitote, Cuauahtemoc Peranda decided to change the story, and make the one who falls from the sky, not a woman, not a man, but a boy—full of innocence, magic, and wonder. In following his Aztec name, Cuauhtemoc, meaning “Descending Eagle & The Messenger of The Gods to The People”, he is creating a world of imagination and necessary messages of self-creation and community renewal. And, with works from guest artists Jochelle Pereña, Kristin Torok, and Elizabeth Morales, this performance event, mitote, creates a mythic space for inspiring creation in all those who are present. A dynamic night of contemporary dance, The Boy Who Fell From The Sky is not a performance to be missed! BUY TICKETS NOW

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